My Grandfather (Mom's Side) -- Prayer Request

I just wanted to ask that you pray for my mom's dad. He has been extremely sick the last few weeks and is not doing well. He has been in and out of the hospital multiple times. My mom is in TN (Dandridge) with her family right now. She heads back on Thursday (3/26). Just pray that God's will is done in my grandad's life and that my mom's siblings will accept whatever happens. She has 8 other siblings. This is a stressful time for everyone. Nathan and I are torn because we cannot be there with Mama and Daddy is still overseas traveling and working and it is hard on him to be separated during this time. So just pray that God's will is done and that my mom can be a light during this time to her family.

Update

I am sure that some of you have been wondering where I am and if I have dropped off of the face of the earth. I am alive and well and still in Spartanburg. Once Feb.23 got here I was off and busy. I have been in orientations, classes, and on the floor (5 South) shadowing various people. It has been a long few weeks. I have been bombarded with information that I know is impossible to remember but I am hanging in there. March 17th was my first day with actual patients and it went well. I really like how they have the floor orientation laid out. I have 2 preceptors for day shift. I will be working nights but to get me used to everything I am on day shoft for about 3 weeks. I start out with 2 pts and then add one every week until I get up to 6 weeks. I am going to put in a schedule for the next few weeks because some of you have asked and asked how you can pray for me. 12 hour shifts are long, especially when you do them back to back. My legs and feet are getting used to it but it is also a mental attitide as well. Also, please pray that I will be able to acclimate to night shift. I have never worked nights and am nervous about getting enough sleep during the day. Here is my schedule for the rest of March and April. In May I will hopefully be on my own.

• March 17, 18, 20: 0645-1915 (2 patients)
• March 22, 25, 27: 0645-1915 (3 patients)
• March 29, 30, 31: 0645-1915 (4 patients)

• April 8, 9, 10: 1845-0715 (5 patients)
• April 12, 13,14: 1845-0715 (6 patients)
• April 21, 22, 23: 1845-0715 (6 patients)
• April 27, 28, 30:1845 -0715 (6 patients)
  

Snowstorm of 2009

Snow! Snow! Snow! When I heard the forecast I was sure that they were wrong. In SC they are always wrong. In TN maybe but not here. I was so wrong and so happy about it. My dad was here for a few days on his way back overseas after a conference in Alabama so he got to enjoy it as well. We were in Waynesville, NC when it started and it was insane. The pictures of my Grandmother's house pretty much turned white in an hour. It was coming down like crazy. When we got home that evening in Spartanburg I was so bummed because it was only raining but it only took 2 hours for it to get here and well...you can see the results. Unfortunately I had to be at the hospital at 0645 the next morning so Nicholas took me but we had to get up REALLY early. Enjoy the pictures.

Music

I am so excited because I finally figured out how to get my playlist onto this page. Hopefully it works. It is working for me. Let me know if you are on the page and are not getting any music. It is at the bottom if you are looking for it. Thanks!

JOB!

So this is the second post about jobs but to me this is even more
exciting than talking about my new job. Friday Nicholas got a call from a temp agency that he has a good reputation with. They had an interview for him! We have been waiting for months for this. He has called places, filled out applications and heard nothing. It really is an answer to prayer because his application at the temp agency should have been expired but the wonderful ladies there thought of him and gave him a call. Today is his first day. I will admit that I am a bit sad because I have gotten used to having him around and doing things with him everyday. But like he said...we have to be grown-ups now. Please pray for him that this will be a good fit for him and his skills. Also, pray that it will become more than a temporary job. It does have the possibility to move towards a permanent job. Thanks to everyone who prayed. We are both grateful.

Valentine's Day

I know alot of you are wondering what happened on Carla's Valentine's Day and just to let you know nothing did. We had a very relaxing day. Nicholas worked on a friend's car in return for a nice desk for the office at my house. We are both excited about that. We decided to go to Greenville which turned out to be a big mistake traffic wise. We didn't think we were going to really have enough money to do anything so we didn't have reservations anywhere. I had discovered that there was a restaurant in Greenville that I had not been to since I was in Knoxville so I suggested we find it and let Nicholas give it a try. It is the BEST place for wings. It is called Quaker Steak and Lube. It has a car theme and Nicholas absolutely loved it. After dinner we did some shopping. Marshall's, World Market, and then JCPenney's. Well, I hope all of you had a great day and I hope that everyone is satisfied now that they know what I did for Valentine's Day. Love you guys!

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Carla is officially Carla, RN BSN! I just found out this morning that I passed my boards. I am so relieved and so excited. This is a huge chapter of my life that I can put behind me. I want to thank everyone who prayed for me and who was an encouragement during the last year and a half and especially the last month. I love you guys and really appreciate you. I am so excited! Whooohooo!

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Table Rock State Park

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This past Saturday Nicholas and I decided to go on a hike. We have been doing some fairly moderate hikes lately so we thought we would kick it up a notch and head out to Table Rock State Park in nearby Pickens County. It was a beautiful day and for the first of February very warm. We wore t-shirts all the way up and packed up our jackets in our packs. We decided to do the Table Rock Trail which is a very strenuous hike and was 3.6 miles one-way. That may not seem that far but when you are going straight up and doing stairs a majority of the way it is very tiring. But, I stuck with it and made it and the view was well worth it. Here are some pictures to enjoy.

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Hiking

The last few months I have really been struggling with my self-esteem and alot of the problem has to do with the fact that I am unhappy with how I look and feel about my body. Alot of it has to do with all of the media bombardment that we as females get from every direction about being super skinny. I have tried ever since I came back to the States to try to avoid being sucked in but it is hard when everytime you turn around something is talking about or points to "being skinny" or "losing weight".
I know that I am not at my ideal weight. I am not trying to justify that at all but I do believe that God makes us who we are and we are to take care of our bodies because they are living temples for Him. I am just really having a hard time and I know some other ladies who are as well.

Nicholas has been an amazing encouragement. He is always complimenting and being the shoulder to cry on. He has also been there when I have needed a walking partner, someone to lift weights with, and someone to go ride my bike with. Here lately we have been hiking together and it has made me so happy to be able to hike again. When I was little in Africa we would hike with our parents out to different villages and then when we were in the States we would go on hikes to places that my dad knew about. I got out of hiking for several years because I let someone influence me and decide what we were going to do for fun. I am so thankful that Nicholas enjoys hiking just as much as I do.

I am an MK!

This is a poem that I have had for years and it has always helped me "figure out" who I am when I am having one of those moments.

I am the composite of many nations, cultures, and people.
My home is nowhere, and it is everywhere.

I am trapped by the boundaries of separate cultures,
And at the same time it is by this I am freed.

I can feel at home in a place where no one looks like me,
And feel estranged in a place where everyone does.

I am labeled as "different", "exotic", "strange".
Yes; I am different.

Still; I am the same.
I am a part of two entirely different Worlds.
Loving both, belonging to neither.

The place where I was born could never be my "home-country",
And the place where I am could never fully own me.

I am one, and I am the other,
Too opposite to be equal, too similar to be opposing,
There will always be another owner of My Heart.

Divided, so it seems -- separated by the boundary of my distinct Worlds.

And when I am there, part of me will not be, and when I am here,
My Heart will be elsewhere.

I am a chameleon.

I have adapted, molded, into every situation that Life has thrown my way
World traveler, sophisticated, uncivilized.

Running barefoot, balancing on heels.
White or black beneath my skin.

Who am I?
I am neither and I am both.
I am a part of a whole, divided.
Could there but be a way to possess one World?

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Ashley Hope Baker

New Job! NCLEX! Test Results!

I have a job. Actually I have a job for several weeks but I am not working at the moment because I am waiting to see if I passed my boards and getting my nursing license. It has been a very stressful last month. I have diligently studied everyday for 3-4 hours doing practice questions and reviewing different information that I did not know well enough to answer the question. The test that I had to take was the NCLEX. I took it yesterday (2/10/09). I can unofficially get my results this evening but I am waiting for Nicholas because I do not want to do it alone. I can't help but think...what if I failed? Will I be a disappointment to those that I love? I know that I won't but those questions are still popping up in my mind. My biggest fear in life is failing. I hate failing at anything. Needless to say I am a perfectionist.

Back to the job. I will be working at Spartanburg Regional Hospital in Spartanburg, South Carolina. I am on 5 South which is a Medical/Surgical floor with an emphasis on GI (gastrointestinal) patients. I will be working night shift which I am a little nervous about (7PM - 7AM). I have many people tell me that I am a night owl but I have never had to change my schedule to sleep during the day. So, hopefully that will all work out. I start orientation on 2-23-09 so my vacation is almost over.

Please pray for me as I get my test results and as I mentally prepare for this huge change in my life. I am excited and terrified all wrapped up into one big bundle. I know that the LORD will be with me and that He does not give us things that we cannot handle (they may not always be easy, but we can handle them with His help).

Christmas 2008

Being an MK is always hard on holidays because more that likely you are away from family. This year I got to be with everyone. My parents came in for my graduation and stayed through Christmas. My brother Nathan also got to fly in from Texas and stay with me as well. It was a fun time. They helped me move into my new home and we had a lot of fun doing many different activities.

* Grove Park Inn for breakfast on my mom's birthday (Nicholas got to come along on that trip)
* Christmas present shopping for each other
* Skeet shooting at Pauline's SCDNR gun range (even Mama pulled the trigger once)
* Visiting with both sets of grandparents (Smith's in North Carolina and Canada's in Tennessee)
* Cutting down our own Christmas tree at Christmas Tree Hill
* Watching movies with Mama, Daddy, Nathan, and Nicholas

I was so thankful to spend time with everyone and it all worked out so perfectly. Christmas Eve we went to North Carolina and spent time with my grandparents (dad's side), great-grandmother, aunt and cousins. Nicholas spent that day with his family in South Carolina. Christmas Eve night we drove back to my house and opened presents Christmas morning with Mama, Daddy, Nathan, and Nicholas.

This is my great-grandmother. She will be 94 in March and she is proud of it.

Nathan opening presents. That is my awesome tree behind him that I cut down myself!

My mom. I love her to death and miss her. Don't have one of Daddy by himself or I would post it too, but, I love him just as much too!

We had to get them small things so they could travel back with them. We got Mama a beautiful scarf and Daddy a nice pullover from Mast General for all of his traveling. We also got them snowman poop (mini marshmallows), which is what they are opening here.

Just being goofy and silly!

Where have I been?

Many of you have been bugging me to get back to my blog and to update it, so, here I am. I am not sure how long this will last because when I get busy this is the first thing that suffers. But anyways. Most of you know but some don't I graduated from nursing school on December 13, 2008. Well, that was graduation day but I did not actually attend graduation. I am now in Spartanburg, South Carolina. It has been a long time since I have felt that I am at home but I do now and I am so excited.